Lost and Found

Life isn't like a laptop where you can just strike the back button or click undo then vwallah!!you are on your history!! If life is like that, then it's kinda lame.

Let me share you something from my experience.

Way back like 5 years ago, I can’t manage my temper. When I get mad, without second thought, I would shout and articulate offensive words. =( Lucky for me back then that nobody has filed a case against me, or else I might be the court’s favorite visitor. Whew! I always lead a team, so that’s why I was always in the end of my tether. But at one circumstance, I found my turning point with my attitude. Out of the blue I hurt someone, like physically. I stabbed him on his hand with my pen and so he was rushed to the school clinic because he fainted and was so pale like a paper. Then I knew I knocked a bone and a vein.. After that accident, I feel like everbody was against me and that they all hate me. At that time, i had jam-packed of regrets of being so stupid to act like a criminal. Having a temper tantrum is difficult to manage, i tell you. That’s how dim-witted I was when i got angry.

Though changed doesn’t happened overnight, I am still in my ride to control my anger. Indeed it is so difficult but if we have much perseverance, nothing is impossible. Now, I take time to breathe and I prefer to rationalize my point. I may have failed sometimes but I believe it is part of the process. And what really helped me is now is my journey in finding conscious awarenss and be more responsible with my attitude. And now that I am radiating love to my life, I have more peace. There may be a lot of challenges that would test my patience, but for as long as I believe I know where I stand, then it’s all that matters. As long as I don’t hurt anyone then it’s more than ok. If I need to confront someone then I will definitely do it in the name of professionalism if it really needs to be talked about. But occasionally, there are things that are better left unspoken though.

We may not be able to turn back the time like some movies do, but we can still make it right for as long we are alive. We can still do more good and dwell on doing the right thing in recompense of our faults.

Don't let darkness get into our nerves. Learn to breath and tell yourself to let go of that negativity as it won't do any better for you. Let's breath and don't forget to listen to yourself and ask what is rightful. There is no one who knows yourself better. Do what you think is truthful and don't let anger eat up the best of you.

When I LOST my temper, I FOUND my decision point. How about you? What’s your LOST AND FOUND?

Masalam